You Know Ima Dreamer

I’ve always dreamed.  Dreamed of being a wife, a mother, rich, beautiful, of happiness……of what it would be like to do whatever my little heart desired without worrying about time or money or logistics or schedules or worries……..These I consider daydreams.

I have always dreamed.  Dreamed of being wronged by my significant other, of being chased by a madman with a knife/scissors, of large dark bodies of water, of my grandparents house that has long been sold.  These I consider my nightmares.

However……I cannot recall any dreams of happiness.  Isn’t that fucked up?

So…..in the spirit of Sigmund himself.  I have created a book.  A big, RED book…….It being red has nothing to do with C.G. Jung’s Red Book….it was merely by coincidence that my book is red.  However, I like the coincidence.    My book will be a recording of all of the dreams that I see fit to analyze.  I’ll start with the dream itself.  The manifest content, the latent content….then I will move on to Free Association and the 5 step process to break the symbolism’s down……..I hope to learn something from my NIGHTMARES…..From my RED BOOK……so that my daydreams will, ONE DAY, be  that much more obtainable.

Don’t get me wrong.  My life is truly blessed……..but there is something that my subconscious is trying to tell me.  I know it with all of my heart.  I can feel it in my bones……….I’m on a mission and I hope that said mission ends up being the journey of a lifetime.

My book will be my transference…..because I have nobody else to trust with the information that will be written into it.